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04:13pm 30/03/2007
  Damn, last night beat me down. No sleep for me. That reminds me, I should eat something.  
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Blah blah blah   
07:04pm 10/02/2007
  I turned down the new job at the airport. Davanni's, not forever. I had fun last week. I partied, played pool, sledding, a couple good movies, Lost was on, etc... Overall I've had a pretty damn good February, so far. That could change but, I hope not!!!
I really don't know what to think anymore. Everything is going so fast. Jenny has a boyfriend, Mike. I am happy for her but also jealous. She says she's in love, which scares me cause just a week ago she practically slept with Asian Matt. Dylan and I are so... I guess I have no clue what to say about that. Jonah asked me to get lunch after school on Tuesday. I am not too sure he will go through with it. I really do love him. He always has the ability to make me smile. The one who held me tight.
I have so many secrets. I should never keep things inside but I've learned that I have to. People get so mad if you make choices they don't agree with. It is my life and I should be able to do what I want and not have to worry all the time about what everyone else thinks but, I like having friends and family. I refuse to do what they want therefor I have to keep things from them. Everyone but Jenny. She accepts me for who I am. Thank you Jenny.
12:15am 27/01/2007
  Well, I got a new job. I start Feb 5th. I'm not excited at all. Eh, whatever. I'm still going to be one shift a week and Davanni's. It's a Friday night and I am bored out of my mind. I worked till 10. Got nothing to do now.  
06:14pm 22/01/2007
  Tongue too!

John kicked me out of Davanni's yesterday. Maybe I will be fired. Have my hours cut?? Fuckers. I hate that place and now I am going to start seriously looking for a new job. ARG!
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Well shit   
04:31am 19/01/2007
  3:18am Life can't be figured out. I think I am just going to start living for me. Whatever I want to do with my life, I'll do it. If it takes time, effort, courage. I can do it. But only if I'm doing it for me.
Is livejournal really here to make it possible for other people to read your thoughts? Why would anyone want that? Who am I asking and why am I doing so?Why, if I am doing it, ask questions?
It is becoming WAY too hard to keep my eyes the fuck open. And yes, the swear word was completely necessary.

Baby sat Maddy yesterday. Holy moly. That was fun. I love kids. I hope Jenny, Dylan and myself can work it out. That would really be a funky bunch!
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05:15pm 27/12/2006
  I have to work at 5 today. Just sitting around wasting time till then. I think I should probably eat something before. I have only been eating about one meal a day. I go to work and eat break food. That's it. Gross cause the food there really isn't healthy. I am sick of my job. Thinking about finding a new one. I am sick of my life. Thinking about finding a new one. Tuition is due tomorrow. Damn. I think I'll go over to MCTC and get that painting class off my list. Tuition will then be cheaper. That's not the only reason. I simply don't want to take the class.

Mom and her internet.
I have to go now.
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03:07pm 20/12/2006
  I feel better. That last post has been made private and the anger has subsided. He still has not been forgiven. If he proves to me that he is sorry, in time, maybe we can be friends... Or at least be cool with each other.  
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04:27pm 29/11/2006
  Just got done submitting my application for MCTC. Yehaw... I suppose.
I did it again too. I guess when I say that there are so many ways I could take it. Fuck this Livejournal bullshit. None of it even matters anymore.
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11:21am 28/09/2006
mood: excited
Don't read this, cause I know you don't care...Nobody really cares. That doesn't bother me though. I don't really have anymore... I guess that's OK. Pretty soon I will have Jenny back and my life wont be as friendless. Tina and I are no more. Kelly and I are cool but we don't hang out anymore. Drama with Jonah. Betsy hasn't really been a friend for 2 years, since she left and returned not the Betsy I liked so well.
BUT, I am happy right now! Oh so happy. I can't wait. I hope this turns out to be great!
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11:27pm 23/09/2006
mood: cheerful
I'm bad. I'm bad. You know it!!!

I would have to say that this is the best feeling in the world. The clarity and clouds. Like the perfect day laced with beautifully scented fog.
I miss...   
09:32pm 14/09/2006
mood: Merp
So many.

How can people spend so much time on computers? It's making me feel... not too terribly terrific.
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09:06pm 21/08/2006
mood: no...
I guess I am going out tonight. I spent the other half of my day with Betsy. Tomorrow I am going to hang out with her as well. AND Thursday... ahhh! I don't really like making so many plans with one person. Doesn't leave room for others. But she is going off to college. I gotta get Jenny back in the cities. NOW!!! I miss her. Well, I think the boys are coming to pick me up soon so... I should go get ready for a late night!
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09:04pm 27/07/2006
  Oh God what am I doing?  
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09:08pm 18/07/2006
mood: hmf
They said they would call me back. Betsy is talking to those people in Argentina. Blahhhh!!! I don't know what is going on. ___________ maybe.... I can't think anymore, got too much bouncing around!!!!!
Today, so far...   
08:16pm 11/07/2006
mood: chipper
Alright, so... today was a pretty good day. It started out with Kelly and I going to get breakfast at IHOP! Then we went to IKEA. That was interesting. Then we cleaned his van some more, spiffed it up, got ice cream from DQ, then went to work. Work was so hot I wanted to die. As I was walking home I picked some nice n tasty raspberries. When in my house I dished myself up some creamy vaniller ice cweem an' mushed up dem berries and had myself some yummies!!!!
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03:44pm 09/07/2006
  I'm going to kill you, NOW!!! Damn you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

uhg, Jenny
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11:27am 02/07/2006
  Ahhh this page is all in German, coool.



There is far too much to say and I just can't do it. I love Germany so much. The trip home was hell. Night zug. layover. 8 hour flug. 13 hour cancellation time. 20 hour car ride. The real definition of planes, trains and automobiles.
01:25pm 12/06/2006
  I am going to Germany tomorrow. So, farewell to all!  
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12:34pm 11/06/2006
mood: cheerful
I am a graduate of SOUTH HIGH!!!!! What now???? oh!!!!

Yeah, the overnight party was fun fun fun!!! Swimming and dancing... and all that jazz.

Last night was also very fun. Betsy's grad party. Both the Michaels like Bets. Fabian can pull beer from thin air. Some of us(Bets and I for sure...Jenny too and possibly Fabi) got drunk and it was fun! Fabian carried me away and they thought he was trying to rape me so people came to rescue me. haha. Betsy was drunk, I love drunk Betsy! After, Michael Burton, Ben, Jenny and myself went for a very long walk. Went back to Betsy's and we were locked out. So we just came back here and slept at 5am.
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09:23pm 06/06/2006
  Desert on my elbow!!!! Okay, 1 more day left. I am sick, period and got 4 hours of sleep last night. I'm ok.